Over-commitment

Ever take on more than you can cope with without thinking it through?

Parts of me get very carried away with new ideas. We have a tendency to commit to new projects not realising that a few months down the line there will be several things happening at once that all require most of the time in the day... then things overwhelm.. and then things fall by the wayside and people get let down, angry, disappointed and the disapproval from outside at our failure becomes internalised.

If everything was written on a chalk board we'd just take a cloth and wipe the whole thing clean and start again, but life's not like that unfortunately. If only.

I can feel I am at that point again where everything is becoming too much. At least one of the projects involves building a new place to hide - yes, a new place to work but also far far away from the noise of the city and the people whose endless chatter and shout conflicts and competes with the noise of my system.

But until the new space is ready I must work within the current structure. Perhaps it is time to step back from a few commitments as quietly and subtly as possible so that no one notices and focus on the things that life most requires like the 9-5 and the housework! Possibly two of the least satisfying, most pointless and yet most central activities.

And neither requires much brainpower.