And... it's done

Amazingly I have managed to extricate myself from some of my many many obligations and a curious calm has descended.

I wonder if the system doesn't create the environment of chaos for itself.

Create activity in the real world > drowns out the noise inside > creates more busyness on the outside > creates more expectations and pressure from others > internalise need to achieve > pressure increased on system structure > increase in noise inside.

Whereas removal of stimulus (too many commitments, too many projects, too many friend requirements, too much with the twice weekly therapy all put on hold for 3 weeks)...

Less outside noise > less inside noise.

Hence the curious calm.

All I need now is a goof night's sleep and I'll be back on track, minus the noise I hope.

Or, I could be repressing the system and putting the world on autopilot. I guess this will become clear. If it's only a temporary solution then the system will kick back at me soon enough.