It has been grey everywhere for so long this winter seems to have gone on forever and now that summer seems to be creeping in its hard to realise that the grey skies weren't inside all that time after all. You can forget that the grey can be inside and out and sometimes the outside can be internalised especially after long, long months.Today there is sunshine, yesterday there was sunshine, the day before there was sunshine and somehow its starting to (almost) be seen by the insiders. They look out from time to time and if all they see is grey then thats all there is but now they are starting to realise that maybe its not the only thing to be seen. Maybe times are a-changin. As Mr Dylan said once.
I wonder how they will feel this summer as the first summer since the breakdown, breakout, bid for freedom. This will be the first summer that they have been allowed simply to be..
The youngest is looking forward to lying on the grass and watching the birds swoop overhead. It's been a long time since we were allowed to do that. Its something we want to do deliberately without it being a means of escape.
Dissociation is sky-blue in summer and dark grey in winter and pitch, pitch black at night.
